Monthly Archives: September 2012

Update!


Hey everyone!
How’s it going with you? It’s been quite a busy week and a lot’s been happening with me lately, things that I may share in the near future. In the meantime, this is a quick update.
* At the beginning of this month, I was so excited about life and living and I tagged it “Happy September”. So whenever something was going wrong and I was losing my joy, I’d remind myself “Happy September” and refuse to be depressed. The last 10days have been HARD!
* Everyone seems to me moving these days. Not everyone really, but two of my closest friends have left the country for further studies in the last couple of weeks. I miss them a great deal already.
* I seem to be making a lot of progress at work. I’m the only lawyer in my department so I’m kinda like the go-to person whenever there’s an issue. Been taking my team on several trainings, 30 minutes before proper work begins everyday. Next week, I get to train Management for 4hours. That’s so rad!!!!! *fist pump*
* Also about work, the Director General of my commission will be visiting my zonal office for the first time next week, guess who is writing the welcome address? Yup! 😀
* You know how you feel like you’re in control of a particular habit or something like that until you’re faced with serious temptation? It’s hard! But I know I’m not fighting alone so this too shall pass.
* I hate it when two people don’t get along and you’re friends with both of them. I don’t want to have to choose sides. Why can’t everyone just get along? Sigh
* You know the internet-fast I did earlier this month, I should do it again. Social media is overrated! Maybe I came back too soon. Even with the new twitter account and following just a handful, I’m still disappointed that there’s way too much negativity in the world.
* I learned a lot about myself this month. It’s shocking I didn’t know some of these stuff before now. Some of the new info is kinda hard to deal with. Is it possible to change or at least control some aspects of your personality? Will that make me less me?
* I love my brother! This shouldn’t be an issue, right? It’s funny that I resented him for years. We’ve had drama as I’m sure most siblings do but now, I can honestly, wholeheartedly say I love my brother! This excites me.
* I’ve always had more male friends that female. It’s always been easier for me to relate with guys. I just found out something that makes me want to question every (or almost all) friendship I have with the opposite sex. So unfair!
* There’s something God has told me to do and He’s been telling me for a while now. I honestly don’t want to do it cause I know it’d be really hard. The funny thing is this month, I’ve had several people tell me they saw me in their dream, doing that very thing! Now when someone walks up to me and says “I saw you in my dream” or “God says to tell you…” I already know where they are going. God doesn’t play fair. Anyway, I yield. I’m going to do it and trust that His grace is sufficient for me. I’m gonna need y’all to keep me in your prayers. I don’t want to change my mind again.
* Today, I’m grateful for the gift of hearing and the ability to appreciate good music. What are you grateful for?

Have an awesome day!
Kisses,
FutureNewYorker!

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A Psalm


In the midst of the pain and confusion, you read a Psalm of praise and suddenly it’s not so dark anymore. God is who He is regardless of what you’re going through… I’ll praise You through the storm.
Psalm 63:1-8 (NLT)
1. O God, you are my God;
I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
My whole body longs for you
In this parched and weary land
where there is no water
2. I have seen you in your sanctuary
and gazed upon your power
3. Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
How I praise you!
4. I will praise you as long as I live,
lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
5. You satisfy me more that the richest feast.
I will praise you with songs of joy
6. I lie awake thinking of you
meditating on you through the night.
7. Because you are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
8. I cling to you,
Your strong right hand holds me securely…

FutureNewYorker!

“Dear God” Letter…


Dear Lord,
Why do I suddenly feel so far from You? Why does it feel like I’m talking to a brick wall? I can’t even find the right words. My heart feel like it’s a thousand miles from You, from home. I miss You. I miss us. I long for more. My soul is thirsty for You but I can’t seem to find the way. I seem to have lost my peace. On the outside, I look okay but deep down I know something is off. I still read the Word, or at least try to, but I don’t get much from it now. It’s beginning to feel religious when all I truly want is a genuine relationship with You.
I don’t want to just coast along. I want more. More out of life, out of learning, out of sharing, out of loving. I desire to truly live.
I stopped worrying about my future a while ago when I handed the rein over to You but somehow, this week was so tough, I seem to have picked up the habit again. I worry about the things I have no control over. I just feel like I need to do something, anything to keep things moving. You came to give me abundant life, right? Well, I want to live that abundant life.
I know that I’m not in competition with anyone and that I can trust You to move my life according to Your own calendar. Help me to remember that You are in charge and that You’re working behind the scene. In the meantime, help me overdose on loving You and ensuring that You remain number one in my life. Nothing else matters as long as my life brings You pleasure. For in pleasing You, therein lies my pleasure.
My heart is Yours, teach me Your ways. Flood my heart with peace that transcends all human reasoning. Help me be still and know that You’re God. Help me draw the line between making plans and worrying. Help me know when it’s time to stop and watch You work. Help me see that I can accomplish nothing of my own strength. Give me wisdom beyond my years. Prepare my heart for the place where you are leading me and teach me to be patient.
I lean on You and not to my own understanding. I listen out for the Still, Small Voice. Calm my heart enough to recognize You when You speak. You hold my life and I trust that You have plans to give me a hope and a future, to bring me to an expected end.
There is no God like You in all the earth. No one that I can trust with the responsibility of keeping my heart, that’s why You have it. You complete me, You make me whole. You’re a loving Father. You care for me and all my affairs, no matter how seemingly insignificant. You’re a trusted friend and confidant. A faithful lover. I adore You today and always. Your love amazes me… Teach me to accept it.
Eternally Yours,
FutureNewYorker!

I’m Learning…


Hello everyone!
I’m really, truly sorry for being MIA for a while. I was on some kinda fast and I just took time off the internet. I should have informed you before going incommunicado but the decision was sort of impromptu. I still am on the fast but I’m using the internet for a few days (work related stuff) and thought to just drop a note.
While I’m here, I might as well share with you a few of the things God has been teaching me and reminding me lately…
1. God is in control. It’s better to just submit to His sovereignty.
2. Life is in phases, you can’t skip a class.
3. God loves you. He wants the best for you. He has a plan, He’s working.
4. Don’t trust your feelings, they change. 5. Nothing you desire shall ever be enough. It’ll never bring you the satisfaction you desire. You’ll always want more (“Man shall not live by bread alone..” Substitute bread for anything you think sustains you – love, food, money, achievements…)
6. Our relationship with God and the promises in His word, is what truly sustains us. His word is the foundation of our grace and fulfillment.
7. Today is today! It comes complete with its own set of joys and mini dramas. Leave tomorrow alone; it will come soon enough.
8. Eat of life to the fullest. Don’t put life on hold while you wait for what you desire. Now is the time to experiment. If you gain nothing else, you’ll have memories.
9. Know your worth. Stop listening to the lies of the Devil. What does God say about you? Believe it!
10. Getting your dreams will always cost you something. Something has to go in order to be replaced with something better.
Everyday I have to remind myself that God is enough! God is more than enough!!
When all this is over, I’ll write about my experience this period and write in detail all that I’ve been learning. I have so much to be grateful for. I miss y’all so much. Thanks for the emails. I’ll respond soon.
Plenty love!
Kisses,
FutureNewYorker!

Weekly To-Do list!


Hello there!
I got this to-do list from my brother. I like, I thought to share.

Excerpt from weekly to-do list:
* Exercise as many days out of the week as possible
* Write a little bit each day, even if just a lovely few lines
* Rise up early to fellowship in His presence
* Teach your heart out, be the class you’d love to take
* Cherish and value loved ones, especially those right under your nose
* Take time to play, watch a silly TV show, just hang out
* Be ethical in your intentions and actions
* Pursue other dreams and challenges
* Don’t be too hard on yourself
* Don’t be too hard on others
* Forgive your past.
* Forgive your past.
* Forgive your past.

Kisses,
FutureNewYorker!

Dear God…


My Everything,
It’s a new month. Thank you so much for the opportunity to see this one. You’ve kept me alive and well through the last eight months of this year, I’m so grateful. So much has happened in my life between January and now, it’s so amazing, I don’t even know where to begin. Indeed, you make my life so beautiful. My heart is so overwhelmed – in a good way. I have a lot to be thankful for.. So much. I may not say it often enough, but I need you to know that I am grateful, I am thankful, I am glad for you have made me glad and I rejoice in the God of my salvation.
Your grace and your mercy have kept me this far even when I am undeserving. Your love has upheld me, you’ve shone your light into the darkest places of my heart, filled me with hope, given my life meaning, given my life definition. I am a thousand times better today than I was at this time last year. Most times, I focus so much on the things that I do not have and I overlook the blessings that are already made manifest in my life. There’s so much you’ve done, I just want to burst forth in praise.
I love you beyond words o lover of my soul and keeper of my dreams, my ever present help, my strong tower, the one who gives me back my life and sustains me, the glory and the lifter of my head and my constant friend, my song, my testimony and my great reward. Like water gushing from within me, I pour my love on you. I release my praise like perfume and pray that it comes up to you as a sweet smelling savor. I just want to drench you in my tears of adoration.
Who am I that you would love me this much, holy God? Who am I that my affairs are your concern? The one who holds my life. You keep the key to my heart. You love me beyond my imagination and bless me beyond my expectation. You fill my life with hope. I am lost without you. Your love consumes me. I am lost in you. There’s no me without you and I don’t even want to exist outside of you.
Thank you for who you are. Thank you for dealing with my fears. Thank you for taking care of my future; it’s all in your hands Lord. I adore you. I reverence you. I long to love you and to know you more and more each day.
Eternally Yours,
FutureNewYorker!

Update!


Hello!!!
Welcome to September! Wow! Is it just me or this year is moving really fast? Can’t believe we are in September already. I do have a lot to be thankful for. Just few months ago, I was complaining and whining about NYSC and counting the days till it’ll be over and now I’m complaining about the stress of work, colleagues and bosses. Life really does move on!
* This year has been one of growing and learning and moving on and more learning. I’ve grown more in the last nine months than I have in the last five years put together. I’m glad.
* Still speaking of learning, I’ve learned a lot about myself in the last month. For instance, I’ve learned that I find it really easy to have deep conversations with ‘strangers’ or people I just met. I’m not exactly sure if it’s a good or bad thing but I know I’m comfortable with it. Not random strangers though, there should be a common ground of course.
* I’m back on my diet, yay! This time though, the focus is more on healthy living. I got lots of books on physical fitness, health and healthy living. I’ve been putting the points into practice and can I just say I feel fantastic! Funny enough, people notice and they all wanna know the secret. I’m gonna start charging for consultation really soon. Lol.. I even got my mum to start focusing on her health, that’s a MAJOR achievement. 😀
* I’ve got my reading mojo back!!!
* I made a new friend this month. I AM MAKING PROGRESS! *huge grin* Unfortunately, she isn’t in the same town but I’m glad still.
* I like to share. Whatever it is, I just want to share; information, food, gifts, anything. It makes me happy. (That’s another thing I’ve learned about myself)
* I’m actually enjoying exercising. Like! Me, loving exercises?! It’s a miracle! Did I already say that? I prayed about it and God answered me. Yippie!!!
* Don’t know if I’ve mentioned it here that I keep a journal specifically for writing letters to God. Well, I do and it’s the most beautiful thing ever. There are times I don’t feel like praying or can’t find the words, I just realized that I find it really easy to write down my thoughts to Him and that’s PRAYER! 🙂
Oh there’s so much more I want to say. I’m suddenly excited! It’s a good day. It’s gonna be an awesome month.. I can feel it strongly in my bones. God is faithful!

This blog isn’t exactly secret anymore, lol. I get a lot of emails from readers these days, it’s shocking. So a big thank you to everyone who’s been following my journey. Thanks for the comments, emails, following the blog and bookmarking this page. I’m glad there are people out there who connect with me. God bless you!
Kisses,
FutureNewYorker!