Over the last few days, I’ve been contending with a lot of doubt and struggling to keep the faith (I said in my last post that God and I were going through a rough patch), there are a few songs that have helped me deal. Music is my muse, always has been. These songs from my playlist have been on repeat for about three days straight and have finally led me to my knees (of course, God always wins). Anyway, I just wanted to share my music with you.
1. These Broken Hands of Mine– Joe Brooks
God knows my feet are aching
And I’ve got mountains ahead to climb
One way at a time
I’ll let these broken hands of mine give me strength….
Ever listen to lyrics of a song and be like “you’re in my head, get out of my head! Stop stealing my lines!”? Yeah, this is one of those
2. Bridge Over Troubled Water – Simon and Garfunkel
When you’re weary, feeling small
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all.
I’m on your side, Oh, when times get rough
And friends just can’t be found.
Like a bridge over troubled waters
I will lay me down
This song makes me cry, always. It’s just a beautiful song for those low times.
3. I Look To You – Whitney Houston
I honestly, don’t know which part of the song to highlight here. Every line, every verse is something. Where do I turn when everything else has failed? It’s such a beautiful song that just makes you lift up your hands to heaven and say “help me, I’m weak”. After all my strength is gone, in you I can be strong. I look to you.
4. I Believe In Love – Barlow Girl
How long will my prayers seem unanswered
Is there still faith to reach the end
… I believe in God even when He’s silent
Sigh… It takes a lot to continue to trust in God and hope against hope even in the moments of His silence. It’s easy to believe when He’s speaking or showing you signs, but there are times when it seem like you’re fighting all by yourself, how much will you trust Him then?
5. I Choose To Believe – Phillips, Craig and Dean
I choose to believe and never give up hope
God is good, He’s in control
I’ll keep the faith I trust in His way
Even when His face is hard to see
I choose to believe
This one has become my personal favorite. I’ve had this song for a while but never really listened to it until two nights ago. I’d come to my wits end and was just fed up with hoping for better things (which is when I stopped talking to God). I just was listening to music on some random shuffle and this song came up. Even in the silence, God has a way of speaking. I choose to believe, even when He’s silent. I trust Him even when I don’t. He’s in control even when it seems like He isn’t. Lord, I believe, help me with my doubts.
He’ll never put more on me than I can bear.. I’ve got to believe that. He trusts me enough to carry this load and He’s equipped me with all that I need to follow through. There I times I want to say to Him “you trust me too much, I’ll fail you. Reduce my strength and lift off this burden”. But He knows more than I do. He sees it all. Even when the road is hard for me to see, I choose to believe. I’m done fighting. You win!