It’s my birthday today! Miss Anna Kovie Evi-Parker is now officially 26. Wow! It’s still sinking in… Twenty-six.
There are a lot of things I thought I’d have achieved by now that still seem a long way off. This should leave me depressed, right? Wrong. I know this may sound cliche, but I do have plenty to be grateful for…
I always thought by now I’d be married to a man who loves me. I’m not. I’m still single. I however, have started to love me. I’ve begun to accept my quirks and all. I’ve come to the place where I can think about the kind of person I am and smile. Boy, have I grown! I may not have a man who loves me… Yet. But I’m beginning to love me and that is just as, if not more, important. It’s been a long time coming. So today, I’m thankful that I’m not yet married to that man because the foundation would have been faulty.
I always thought by now I’d be some high-profile career woman. Errm… Lol. I’m not. In fact, I may as well be jobless right now, but I know now what I do NOT want to do with my life. I believe that every experience one has should serve a purpose and though I don’t fully see the big picture, I think I’m finally on the right path. So today, I’m thankful that I haven’t gone too far up the wrong path that I can’t turn around.
I’m grateful that I can see opportunities for adventure and that I’m not afraid to try new things or start over.
I’m thankful that it’s never too late.
I’m thankful that I can see beyond me, that I’ve got a ministry, that I’ve found a voice.
I’m thankful that I’ve made friends, that I’ve got a filter and that I can walk away.
I’m thankful for a do-over. Hard as it is, I’m glad I’m can face some of my fears.
I’m thankful for my vulnerability, and brokeness.
I’m thankful that I’m unworthy, but HE chooses me still, I’m humbled.
Words would never be able to show how grateful I am for my Abba. For everything! Ever faithful; ever true. Working in me, breaking me, molding me, fixing me, re-shaping me,… It’s overwhelming how much HE cares. Who am I that You are mindful of me??? So unworthy! Yet, He’s loved me. Loved me beyond my faults.
I’m thankful that everyday, Abba teaches me to trust Him more. The lessons are tough and some days are easier than others. Some lessons are better understood than others, but I’m learning. I still make mistakes, almost on a daily basis, but I’m learning. I’m still weak, still broken, still raw, but I’m a work in progress. God’s working in me and I can see changes. Not everyone might see them, but they are there.
I’m thankful that He wants to use me as I am. He’s not waiting to perfect me first. Right here in my filth! Amazing!
Lol… Kovie is thankful! Kovie is overwhelmed. Kovie is speaking in the third person because it doesn’t feel like the old Kovie anymore.
If I had a million tongues, it still won’t be enough to say how grateful I am.
So I feel like a new chapter of my life is about to begin and it’s not just cause it’s my birthday. I’m open to whatever God wants to do. It seems like He changes my plans as soon as I put them down. Lol. I trust You. Your will, Daddy.
On Monday, Abba gave me an early birthday present. 😀 :-D. Still excited!
This post should have gone up since morning but I’ve had the most exhausting day ever! Like my bosses at the office didn’t get the birthday memo. Lol… Anyway, in all, I had a good day. Thanks for all the messages and love y’all have shown today via, emails, twitter, whatsapp, bbm, sms, phonecalls… See me feeling special and shiiii ^_^. Grateful!