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Out With The Old…


It’s strange that I’ve done some of my best writing this year, but have also had the worst blogging year. I almost want to apologise for being flaky. Almost. But I won’t because that would presume that things are going to change. I do not see that happening. Not here.

I was right the other time, I have outgrown this space. It was created for a purpose, and it’s safe to say it has done its work. For that, and for everyone who has been on this journey with me, I am grateful. Immensely. I am thankful that you stuck with me and my random musings as I tried to make sense of my life… As I grew into myself and became comfortable in my own skin. That you have stayed to share in my highs and lows, offered words of comfort on the bad days, virtually held my hand through the incredibly bad days, laughed at my terrible jokes, endured pitiful writing (even now), said an amen to my prayers, and released a sombre “I’ve been there, I understand” when I couldn’t find the words, I’m eternally grateful.

I can’t count the number of people who came into my life because of some of the rubbish I wrote here. The ones who found me even when I was hiding. The ones who emailed when I went MIA and stuck around after. For every, “Hi, Kov. Been a while. Are you okay?” My heart bursts with gratitude.

I will confess that I have tears in my eyes as I type this because I almost do not want to let go. Again, almost. But I must. For what is to come, the old has to be set free.

So this is goodbye (for now). I’ll be back with details of the new spaces (yes, spaces!!) when they are ready.

2014 has been quite a year. If you haven’t already, you can read my review here.

Ending the year with this verse ringing in my head:
Psalm 144:3-4 I wonder why you care, GOD— why do you bother with us at all? All we are is a puff of air; we’re like shadows in a campfire. (MSG)

Still amazed at how much He cares. 2014 was a wonderful year…

Love, light, and an abundance of sunshine,

Kov.

PS. I’m not deleting the contents here. Lord knows I’ll need to revisit often.

Feed Your Soul


I love the Lord, He heard my cry, and pitied every groan…

As I type this, I’m in bed listening to a collection of old hymns and smiling to myself in the dark.
Today wasn’t meant to be a busy day. I had the day off work and the plan was to get some much needed rest. But between doing a bit of laundry, catching up on TV shows, editing a couple of articles, social media runs, and preparing several meals, the day wasn’t exactly restful.
I remember reading something KB posted on Instagram about making an effort to do something good for the soul everyday, I know that I’ve been lacking seriously in that department lately. Too many things seem to be happening all at once and it does get quickly overwhelming. And I seem to be making a lot of mental notes to take care of my soul more… Mental notes that don’t turn into action often enough. Yet I wonder why I’m constantly feeling on edge, out of sorts, frazzled.

Since the move to Lagos, I haven’t been giving as much attention to this lady as I should. I can blame it on a lot of things, but the truth is that we will always make time for what is important to us. So right now I’m intentionally making an effort to feed this beautiful soul of mine… This is the rest she needs. We won’t allow the things around us determine how we behave anymore. We choose to live from within… There better be something healthy inside then.

This is a reminder to myself to give my soul something healthy to feed on everyday. And to live from within. There’s peace here, in this moment. This is how we grow through the process.

Hymns are so beautiful though…

Okay, enough writing. More feeding.

Peace, love, and light,
Kov.

This Is What This Is


When I started this blog, Future New Yorker, I didn’t really have a purpose for it except to occasionally keep an online journal and maybe force myself out of my comfort zone as far as my writing was concerned. Well, it grew and became much more than that. Apart from housing my Random Musings, FNY has become for me an opportunity to share my life and my faith.
During my hiatus, I began asking myself if I really wanted to come back to this space. I worried that it had probably outgrown its use. I’d also been thinking about taking my art seriously and wanted a different space to share that. I prayed about it but didn’t hear anything definite concerning the direction in which to take this blog. I also didn’t feel at peace about shutting it down completely. So I came back… Still wondering what the next step should be.
A few days ago, I felt a nudge to start a study on the book of Revelation. This is the very first thing that hit me:
“This is a revelation from Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show his servants the events that must take place. He sent an angel to present this revelation to his servant John, who faithfully reported everything he saw. This is the report of the word of God and the testimony of Jesus Christ.” – Revelation 1:1-2 (NLT).
God wants to reveal things to His people… And He does reveal. Usually, the things He reveals to one person are for the edification of all. He speaks so we can be encouraged, uplifted, corrected (in love), built up…
Ordinarily, I’d skip the introduction of whatever book I’m studying so I can get to what I considered the ‘real stuff’. But this introduction tugged at my heart so much, I couldn’t move on from it. I felt the Holy Spirit saying to me, Kov, this right here is why you do this. It isn’t about just you anymore. You learn so you can share. You experience so you can encourage. You see so you can teach. IT ISN’T JUST ABOUT YOU!
While I’m not trying to sound like I’m some prophet sent with a special message for the world, I know that I have things to share.  We all do. Each of us have gone through experiences in life that at one point broke us. We also have in some ways found our way. Someone else needs to hear how to make it. Someone else will have their path illuminated if we choose to shine our light a little brighter. Maybe not everyone will hear our message. Maybe not everyone will understand it and be blessed by it. But maybe one person will be touched. Maybe one person will be encouraged. Maybe one person will learn. And for that one person, it is worth it.
This is what this is.

Peace, Love & Light,
Kov.

PS. I’m working on improving and upgrading this space so it can be a lot more functional. And because I know that we all have a message to share, I’ll regularly open it up for you too.

PPS. I apologize for the irregularity of posts. As soon as the upgrading process is done, posts will become much more regular, promise.

Don’t Waste The Pain


“Don’t waste the pain-
let it prove thee.
Don’t stop the tears-
let them cleanse thee.
Rest, cease the striving-
Soon you’ll be arriving
in His arms.
Don’t waste the pain-
let it drive thee
deeper into God.
He’s waiting,
and you should have
come sooner.”

Of Reports and the Likes…


Errmm… Happy New Month, guys. It’s been forever, I know *covers face*. I can’t even think of a suitable excuse… There’s none. I’ve missed this space, can’t even lie. I have missed you!!!!
A lot has been going on. Is it just me or has this year been super fast?
Anyway, this post is an update of sorts.

*I quit my job, finally! Yes, I did it. I mentioned that I took my annual leave at the beginning of the year. After taking out time to clear my head and pray about it, I dropped my letter of resignation in February. It’s not the easiest thing I’ve done, but it’s so worth it!

* Some opportunities will never come to you until you make room in your life (and in your heart). I’ve gotten so many offers in this past month, it’s amazing. Like, where were y’all when I needed a break from the drab job?!

* I’ve learned that God’s timing is perfect. I’ve learned that God knows what He is doing. He knows! The Bible isn’t just a book of fictional stories.

* When God told me last year that He was calling me to trust Him without borders in 2014, I thought I knew what He meant. Boy, was I in for a shocker. I had my plans for the year all laid out; with His approval, of course, or so I thought. So when things weren’t working out as I’d hoped, I wanted to scream, to cry, to break things. Then He reminded me, “Kov, trust me without borders”. I’m so glad I did. The story is still unfolding, but it is a good one! Trust me.

* The plan to travel the world has begun. Hallelujah! Starting with road-tripping around Nigeria, we will get there. Had the most epic weekend… Took a road trip to Badagry and Abeokuta with a group of awesome people. Now we are going to make a thing of it. Yes! You can check it out on Tumblr: Yellow Mitsubishi, Twitter: @YelloMitsubishi, or Instagram: Yellowmistubishi.

* There’s a words project coming up sometime this month that I’m a part of. I’ll share details as time goes on. In the meantime, you can follow @LeFaireDuMots on Twitter.

I may have an announcement to share with you soon. *fingers crossed*
There’s so much I have to say but it can’t all go up in one post. Hopefully, soon I can arrange my schedule properly and have enough time to write.
Thanks for all the love in my absence ( yes, I’m back).

Love and light,
Kov!

Promises For 2014


Happy New Year!! (Better late than never :-))
As the new year unfolds, I am reminded of some of the lessons Abba taught me in 2013 that I plan to hold on to in 2014…

  • Count it all joy… (James 1:2). It’s best to accept now that hard times will come, there will be trials, it will get rough. It’s also wise to know before hand that the process is for my own good. I can rejoice in it. I can look forward to its building and developing me into the person Abba wants me to be.
    “2. Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.” – James 1:2-4
  • Consider the lilies… (Luke 12:27). And when it begins to feel like I can’t catch a break, or like He’s abandoned me, or like I’m not making any headway… When I can’t stop my mind from worrying, or I’m beginning to lose faith, I will consider the lilies.
    “22 Then, turning to his disciples, Jesus said, “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food to eat or enough clothes to wear. 23 For life is more than food, and your body more than clothing. 24 Look at the ravens. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for God feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than any birds! 25 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?
    26 And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things?
    27 “Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are.
    28 And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
    29 “And don’t be concerned about what to eat and what to drink. Don’t worry about such things. 30 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers all over the world, but your Father already knows your needs.
    31 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need.
    32 “So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom.
    33 “Sell your possessions and give to those in need. This will store up treasure for you in heaven! And the purses of heaven never get old or develop holes. Your treasure will be safe; no thief can steal it and no moth can destroy it.
    34 Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.”
  • Luke 12:22-34

  • To whom would I go… (John 6:68). No matter how turbulent it gets, I’ve made up my mind already, I am stuck to Him. Really, where would I go? To whom would I turn? Who’s a better option? And when my heart is overwhelmed, it is to Him I would run.
    “Simon Peter replied, “Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words that give eternal life.” John 6:68
  • As sure as the dawn… (Hosea 6:3). Though the manifestation of His promises may tarry, I will wait for Him. He will show forth, as sure as the dawn. If He promised it, He will fulfil it. He watches over His word to perform it. Therein lies my confidence.
    1 “Come, let us return to the LORD.
    He has torn us to pieces;
    now he will heal us.
    He has injured us;
    now he will bandage our wounds. 2 In just a short time he will restore us,
    so that we may live in his presence. 3 Oh, that we might know the LORD!
    Let us press on to know him.
    He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn
    or the coming of rains in early spring.”
    Hosea 6:1-3
  • Customised pathway… (Psalm 32:8). I trust Him to direct me along the best pathway for my life in 2014. If He says, “this is the way”, I will not hesitate to walk in it. Abba knows best. He leads me along the pathway He specifically customised just for me. Whoop!
     The LORD says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
    I will advise you and watch over you.”
    Psalm 32:8
  • Anyone excited about 2014 yet? With promises like these, why wouldn’t I be? 😀

    Giveaway Winner!


    Hello everyone,
    Hope we all had a great holiday? It’s back to work for me today *sob*
    So the giveaway ended yesterday. A big THANK YOU to everyone who participated. Today, we pick our winner. If you don’t win this one, there’ll be another giveaway soon enough.
    To select a winner, I used a Random Name Picker.
    Without further ado, *cue drum roll*
    Our winner is…

    TIWA!!!
    Congratulations girl! I’ll contact you via email with your amazon gift card for Warsan Shire’s Teaching My Mother How To Give Birth, Binyavanga Wainaina’s One Day I Will Write About This Place, and Lola Shoneyin’s Secret Lives of Baba Segi’s Wives.

    Love and chicken grease,
    Kovie.

    28.11.2013


    I watched a man today be vulnerable with his wife. I watched him fidget before he stepped into an office where he probably had a very crucial meeting. I watched him take his wife’s hand in his sweaty one and whisper something in her ear. The look on his face showed that he maybe was scared or worried about what was awaiting him in the next room. He probably told her about his concern.
    I watched her clasp her fingers over his sweaty hand. I watched her lean into him and whisper back in his ear, then kiss his cheek. I watched her delicately wipe off the barely noticeable stain her lipstick had left on the cheek. I watched her smile and saw that he smiled back. I watched her squeeze his hand just before he let go and took the final steps to the door. I watched him glance back one last time and wink at her as she blew kisses in his general direction.
    I watched a couple be in love today and it felt so good to imagine being in love that way. And even though my story has a lot of ‘maybe(s)’ and ‘probably(s)’, I like what I saw and what I (maybe) imagined it to be.

    Day 11: Bad Dates


    Your worst/funniest/most embarrassing date.

    I think I’ve been somewhat lucky in the dates department, haven’t really had bad ones (unless they were so horrible, my mind has now blocked them), except for the one time I went out to lunch with a colleague.
    After much cajoling and convincing, I finally agreed to a lunch date with this colleague we’d refer to here as N. Before the date I’d never really formed an opinion about N as we both worked in different departments and our paths rarely crossed during official hours. I was fairly new at the office and somehow managed to make friends with a few of the people that ran in N’s circle. That’s how we started talking. N’s really smart (if you’ve heard me complain about the people I work with, then you’d know why N was a rare find).
    Anywho, fast forward to D-day. We went to a not too fancy restaurant close to the office. The waitress who served us that day was slow and had mixed up our order, I admit, but really didn’t deserve the rudeness that my date was unleashing on her. He complained about EVERYTHING and would go ahead to embellish his speech with cuss words. It took the patience of job for me not to walk out during lunch. I was so repulsed I couldn’t even eat much. I had to tell him to calm down on several occasions. I was so embarrassed! To make matters worse, N would take a call almost every five minutes. Between his rude outbursts to and about the waitress, and the endless ringing of his phone, we couldn’t have any decent conversation. I prayed for lunch break to be over so I could leave this horrifying experience. I made the mistake of apologising to the waitress on his behalf while he was taking a call, I assumed he couldn’t hear me. Uncle N proceeded to give me a lecture on why it wasn’t my place to apologise on his behalf seeing as he hadn’t done anything to be sorry about. When I pointed out that he’d been rude he went on a rant about how Nigerians were the ones encouraging poor service and how this sort of service would never be tolerated in the UK where he’d schooled for most of his adult life. Let’s just say, I was glad when the date was over and it put an end to whatever friendship I’d envisioned for us.
    I really don’t care how poor the service is, there’s no need to be rude to the help. Not even when they are rude to you. If you have to, find some other way to deal with the situation; have a word with the management, leave, no tip, don’t return. Exchanging words with someone who’s rude to you really doesn’t make you any different from him/her.
    So yup, that about sums up my bad date experiences. Lol… Share yours?

    Birthday Post


    It’s my birthday today! Miss Anna Kovie Evi-Parker is now officially 26. Wow! It’s still sinking in… Twenty-six.
    There are a lot of things I thought I’d have achieved by now that still seem a long way off. This should leave me depressed, right? Wrong. I know this may sound cliche, but I do have plenty to be grateful for…
    I always thought by now I’d be married to a man who loves me. I’m not. I’m still single. I however, have started to love me. I’ve begun to accept my quirks and all. I’ve come to the place where I can think about the kind of person I am and smile. Boy, have I grown! I may not have a man who loves me… Yet. But I’m beginning to love me and that is just as, if not more, important. It’s been a long time coming. So today, I’m thankful that I’m not yet married to that man because the foundation would have been faulty.
    I always thought by now I’d be some high-profile career woman. Errm… Lol. I’m not. In fact, I may as well be jobless right now, but I know now what I do NOT want to do with my life. I believe that every experience one has should serve a purpose and though I don’t fully see the big picture, I think I’m finally on the right path. So today, I’m thankful that I haven’t gone too far up the wrong path that I can’t turn around.
    I’m grateful that I can see opportunities for adventure and that I’m not afraid to try new things or start over.
    I’m thankful that it’s never too late.
    I’m thankful that I can see beyond me, that I’ve got a ministry, that I’ve found a voice.
    I’m thankful that I’ve made friends, that I’ve got a filter and that I can walk away.
    I’m thankful for a do-over. Hard as it is, I’m glad I’m can face some of my fears.
    I’m thankful for my vulnerability, and brokeness.
    I’m thankful that I’m unworthy, but HE chooses me still, I’m humbled.
    Words would never be able to show how grateful I am for my Abba. For everything! Ever faithful; ever true. Working in me, breaking me, molding me, fixing me, re-shaping me,… It’s overwhelming how much HE cares. Who am I that You are mindful of me??? So unworthy! Yet, He’s loved me. Loved me beyond my faults.
    I’m thankful that everyday, Abba teaches me to trust Him more. The lessons are tough and some days are easier than others. Some lessons are better understood than others, but I’m learning. I still make mistakes, almost on a daily basis, but I’m learning. I’m still weak, still broken, still raw, but I’m a work in progress. God’s working in me and I can see changes. Not everyone might see them, but they are there.
    I’m thankful that He wants to use me as I am. He’s not waiting to perfect me first. Right here in my filth! Amazing!
    Lol… Kovie is thankful! Kovie is overwhelmed. Kovie is speaking in the third person because it doesn’t feel like the old Kovie anymore.
    If I had a million tongues, it still won’t be enough to say how grateful I am.
    So I feel like a new chapter of my life is about to begin and it’s not just cause it’s my birthday. I’m open to whatever God wants to do. It seems like He changes my plans as soon as I put them down. Lol. I trust You. Your will, Daddy.

    On Monday, Abba gave me an early birthday present. 😀 :-D. Still excited!

    This post should have gone up since morning but I’ve had the most exhausting day ever! Like my bosses at the office didn’t get the birthday memo. Lol… Anyway, in all, I had a good day. Thanks for all the messages and love y’all have shown today via, emails, twitter, whatsapp, bbm, sms, phonecalls… See me feeling special and shiiii ^_^. Grateful!